Dear Self

I know you are pretty scattered right now and everything seems to be closing in so fast that you cannot keep up anymore with anyone or anything. It is like you are trapped inside your body and you don’t have a clue what is going on in the outside. You are present physically but your mind and soul is somewhere else trying to figure out why the hell you are where you are and why didn’t you take the other path that you know you truly like. We had this situation before right?! We had this, we experienced it and we got over it. We can do it again.

Don’t lose hope, even if everything is a blur, promise me you would not give up. You have a ton of potentials and this is just a start. You have to finish this race you started 6yrs ago. I know you are tired and your knees are close to giving away but sit down for a moment, take it easy…take a deep breath and relax. Put into perspective everything you worked hard for to get here. Don’t disregard all that because we both knew you busted your ass to get here and attain what you have now. Imagine our dreams, their dreams….I knew we agreed that they are not similar but you rest assured that time that the only thing that can make you move forward is to make their dreams come true first before going for your own. Because you told me, remember? That that sense of proudness and fulfillment you’ll feel when you finish this race first will tantamount to the happiness you’ll feel in the future.

So hold on, there will be still days that you feel crappy about but there are days to make up for it as well. There is time to recover, regain that strength and fire in your heart. Don’t lose that hope…that drive, our drive. Let’s take it one step at a time. Shall we?