Betrayal

I trusted and love you with all my heart. I have given everything for you and for us. I want to hurt you like the way i am hurting right now. Everytime i go home it sears like hell and inevitably i just cry. I planted a kiss on ur cheek every morning and yet all this time you were lying to me. I thought it was me, maybe it was me, i am not perfect after all but i don't deserve to be treated this way either. 

Alcohol

Come with me. Come away to a place only alcohol can bring: serenity. Where the mind wanders not and where emotions are tamed. Yes i think i am an alcoholic who cannot live in the real life. Whose survival is merely escaping what is real. The real life is not viable as i am not reliable. All your thoughts are irrelevant...all you can do to make it bearable is to drink and wash away the pain, the agony and misery. Good night.