Sometimes I wonder why certain chances happen to people...is it luck? Pure hard work? Or are they really deserving? I do not want to lose hope but this endless hiring process is taking its tall on me already. I am usually persistent but this time, I think that reality is starting to sink in slowly and engulf me into a ball of self pity. A part of me is saying that this is enough already and that I am not qualified anymore to be accepted in a full time position. There's a part of me already giving up...and that this is getting me nowhere.
Is it so wrong to want something so bad and better? Funny but when I talk to my colleagues they'll say that I am just starting out and that there's a process I have to go through but then I asked myself, if I am new then I don't deserve to have a permanent and stable job? Sigh. This issue has been ongoing for me. I'll rest my head fornjow and maybe apply again when I am finished sewing my hopes back together.
